this is for myself

for days when I feel like I'm invisible and vulnerable:
"I think i should share something with you! and im trying to not be weird or gushy or strange at all..but i always am and i can never get out of that but i thought i should tell you that i think you're maybe the strongest girl i've ever met in my entire life!and i admire you. i dont exactly get the pleasure to talk to you everyday..but i hear things..and i read things..and i remember things...and you've come a long way. the road to getting where you want to be isnt always the easiest. and there can be setbacks. but you seem so determined and motivated to get there... maybe its been a while since you've had dreams or goals..or maybe it hasnt..but you want them..and you kno what is takes to achieve them. thats what i see. and you actually motivate me.. and i thought i was already motivated! trust me...i've been through it..maybe not as much..but i've had my moments..and im doin everything i can to enjoy my life..because i honestly dont kno how long i can last myself. and its interesting to see someone go through the same thing..but in your case i think you've had it rougher. im pretty sure the majority of girls havent gone through the things you have. im sure they havent had the same thoughts or any of that. but you're still here. and you're still "truckin." I cant help but be motivated. And i couldnt help but express my feelings on how strong I think you are."
-T.P.